So I figured I should let this one go.
I've lost energy to play again recently and its not fair for me to try and pick up the character again later.
Senith was - despite many frustrations in playing her - one of the more enjoyable characters I've ever picked up, she was played with fairly simple ideals.
Senith's joining of Nephezar was her way, as an Orphan, of getting off the streets - something she would be eternally grateful to the House for, even though at times that relationship was strained.
Senith's other goals were to: Learn as many conjuration schools as possible (Peaked at 17 different themes at once!)
Master alchemy and have at least one important alchemical or magical discovery to her name (Unfortunately this, while in progress, would never be completed)
Try to become Good Aligned.
Senith hated politics, hated combat and would gladly cloister herself away if she had a chance but this was never really an option so she would often be forced into situations and doing things she did not want to do and often found herself playing diplomat between the peerage, ticker and anyone else. Senith unfortunately didnt really understand "good" at a very basic level and was often fighting her own apathy to do the right thing and the internal conflict of both a very strong innate fear of her own powers and a very real lust for more.
I'd like to thank a number of people who made the character grow but most of all I'd like to thank Stranger who really pushed me to go beyond with the character when I was struggling.
Unfortunately, while I will forver think of EFU as one of the best Roleplay experiences that exist - period - its difficult for me and many factors of it really screw with my anxiety which make it hard to play for too long and the (not unreasonable) rules regarding drop-in-drop-out characters being what they are make it difficult for me to deal. That being said I'm sure I'll be back with another character at some point. Eventually.
I admit, I'm always awful with screenshots but I did capture one or two good ones with this character
Senith would often find herself in control of objects of unquestionable evil...which she would then need to destroy. Always difficult to let go of that power.
https://imgur.com/a/PJ3FVMC (https://imgur.com/a/PJ3FVMC)
Senith would wander
https://imgur.com/wRF9lnv (https://imgur.com/wRF9lnv)
And do strange things..
https://imgur.com/a/cxcVWEc (https://imgur.com/a/cxcVWEc)
And sometimes place spells badly..
https://imgur.com/a/OLP6Hig (https://imgur.com/a/OLP6Hig)
And fight with members of her own house often
https://imgur.com/a/dLzXRuY (https://imgur.com/a/dLzXRuY)
But she was fun for the time that I had her
https://imgur.com/a/6PAgRhR (https://imgur.com/a/6PAgRhR)
It was always a pleasure having Senith visit, she helped make the Wizard Warrens a fun and active place.
It sounds like you're taking a break or reconsidering the way you play. There's no big issue with drop in drop out characters who aren't crucial to any plots or not involved in major conflicts, so if you did still want to play that can be viable it's just up to whether you feel content with that or not.
Still, sometimes it just doesn't work out and there's nothing wrong with a break. Good luck with everything.
Senith was an understated but neat character that I was hoping to eventually recruit for Genovalio's quest. I also totally get where you're coming from; the same things that make EFU great can also make it stressful. It's alright to step back and re-evaluate. At the very least I'll have that useful clockwork contraption she gave Geno to puzzle over. Still making use of it!
Senith helped out Elyn several times, I enjoyed our interactions.